Satisfied With The Break?

Part of my dream is to have my own show on TV. Since I was young, I had been dreaming of being on TV or on the big screen. I think, I had tried to come up with ways to realize this dream of mine but it seemed that it was really far- fetched. There were many reasons- one, I didn't have that "star factor"; two, I think I was not that exposed... though I performed a lot on stage from elementary to college but there wasn't any scout to spot me, give me an offer and help me to be on TV; third, I wasn't confident enough to audition because I always thought that others could do better and it would be a waste of everything trying; fourth, my family wasn't supportive enough; fifth, I could go on and on forever with reasons why the hell I hadn't been on TV!
But things went kind of different after college. Leaving the university and the guild gave me bravery and opened my eyes to countless possibilities and chances. First, I became one of the extras along with Toni Gonzaga, Luis Alandy, Trina Zuñiga in a comedy flick, "Da Sisters" that was starred by Vic Sotto and Michael V in 1998 and was shown on the big screen for MMFF and aired several times on TV. Second, I was lucky enough to be at Hot Stuff on Channel 13 as an extra again for Ato Agustin's interview and it was aired twice, one was on the program's regular time slot and the other was during PBA Halftime.
Year 2003 was the year when I was able to be at Search for a Star's final audition. Months later, I auditioned for Star In A Million twice, but I did not make myself to be on national TV.
It was just last year when I was offered to be the writer and the host of an online English talk show for Hae Yeon International English Center. I was really thrilled because I think it was really a "break"! Several episodes were uploaded in 2 Korean websites and watched by thousands of Koreans particularly the members of an English organization, Young Au San Check. These days, the show can be seen through 4 Korean sites and linked to 1 Japanese and 1 Chinese sites!
Do you think I am happy with this? Yes, I am but not yet contented with it... Just like common people... I am never satisfied! And the thing is, "The Chester Show" isn't on TV, it's on the net!